The last couple days have been a little tough since Daniel has decided to no longer sleep through the night. To make matters worse I kicked my coffee habit for him and so I have no "quick fix" for the morning sleepiness right now. I've found myself being a little crankier and also have felt the slightest depression settle in the past couple days. It's nothing major but it's there pestering me when I don't want it around. But, in the midst of all of this I have been reading a great book called
Calm My Anxious Heart. The timeliness of this book couldn't be better as I'm facing classes starting up again next week, volunteering for our summer Bible study and have a husband who is traveling to Mongolia, Canada and Australia all within a 3 week period. I find anxious thoughts lurking in my mind and am reminded in this book of the following verse:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with THANKSGIVING, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." -Phil 4:6-7
So, I've spent the past few days trying to switch my thought process from entertaining negative thoughts to dwelling on everything I have to give thanks for. (Forgive me, English majors, for ending my sentence in a preposition but this won't be the only time it happens in this blog). And to my delight I've found myself truly grateful for so many wonderful things. Here are some of the things I spend my time thinking about and being thankful for throughout my day:
- a rock star husband
- a son I'm head over heals for
- the opportunity to be a stay-at-home mom
- a supportive family and a great set of in-laws
- a network of friends in Bangkok that encourage and lift me up
- friends in the US that I miss dearly but get to talk to regularly over Skype
- a housekeeper who is incredible
- a ladies church group that helps me grow immensely
- a cute, fluffy dog
- the time and energy to work on my Master's
- play dates!
- Thai food available all day/everyday
and on, and on, and on...
While on the outside I may look haggard, worn-out and exhausted (which all of these I am), on the inside I have a heart overflowing with gratitude for each and every gift I've been given. That is what I praise God for today.